Hear Me Out Dad

You keep my heart eternally speechless

Your mercer I do not deserve

My soul can't give you enough praise

But I'll try to put it into words.

Thank you for all that you've given me

And I'll start at the Cross

You shed all your blood for me

So this is for you a love that will not be lost.

Thank you for providing food

When I was wondering in the streets

Thank you for when I slept in the below zero weather

That your love provided me heat.

Thank you for the random people

Who reminded me you had a plan

Many had attempted to end me

But my life was in your hands.

Thank you for my Talents

Just tell me how to use them

I love being able to do anything to do anything with a pen

Just don't let me abuse them.

Thank you for the hardships, trials and suffering

I know it was all for spiritual toughening

Now would you please forgive me

For I have done endless worry

I've done some unspeakable things

Why do you keep me here?....I should have been dead and gone.

Forgive me for my bitterness

And often my hate towards you

Yet in spite you gave me direction

When I didn't know what to do.

Forgive me for the blessings

I often spit in your face

You delivered me from Jail, Misery and Addiction

But just had to go get another taste.

Forgive me for not being there for my daughters

I look at them and get mad

Cause I can't love my girls properly

Still being mad at my dad.

Forgive me for hating my mom

But thank you for Benji for Annette

Their love was almost close to yours

That blessing I'll never forget.