People would tell me “be yourself” and I’d respond: “Who’s that?”
I was confused about who I was, what I wanted and where I was at.
I yearned for a job that would satisfy me,
A man that was caring, but allowed me to be free,
Plus the time and money to do as I pleased,
But when I got it all, I felt a sense of unease;
I believed I wasn’t worthy of these kinds of rewards,
And that to earn them, a number of points must first be scored.
It’s taken some time and a fair bit of grief,
But I’m slowly learning to ditch that belief.
Working the program has helped me to see
That I deserve good things, just for being me.
Milly D. is a member of AA and a very talented blogger and poet currently living in Germany. You can check out her work on this blog soon or her personal blog,